some days are better, some not so much

Yesterday (Monday) was a catastrophe day. I overdid on thinking (and work), as it happens sometimes.
I worked all Saturday (and for what? On Monday I found out that my antibacterial drugs helps Campylocbacter to grow compared to the one that has no drug. What the h... ?). All Sunday I was sitting in front of my computer, waiting for the "writing gods" to give me the green light. The light never came, or I just missed to notice. But so I was sitting here, forbidding myself all the fun/life before I write.
First my goal was to finish my paper (I like to set huge (day) goals. Such as: Finish PhD - $yeap, I should be done by 4 pm:P $). Then I thought - ok, at least work on the paper a little bit. Perhaps one sequence alignment?? NOTHING happened. I just couldn't do it.
And then, because I didn't rest, didn't work, only thought about having to work, my mind got overheated. At midnight I was done. Kaput. But no, the sleep couldn't come either, because my mind had thoughts running by 1000 thoughts per minute. So... there I was. Stressed and awake - I couldn't work and I couldn't sleep. Until 5 am.

So Monday was not pretty. I was way too overstressed (and stressed over what??? ...nothing too serious!). Ok, I had to meet my supervisor.... And guess, what I ended up doing? I just avoided him. Horrible.
Overall - no productivity for yesterday either.
This comics is SO me on Sunday and Monday: www.phdcomics.com/comics/archive.php?comicid=1079

The other big thing was that I lied yesterday. And I felt terrible (and even more terrible today, when we had a lab meeting). I saw a paper presentation (sort of like a draft, but sort of ready to be presented). It was not by my taste really (to put it softly). But there seemed to be SO much that needed changing (by my standards), so I thought, ok, I will give a few suggestions to fix the bigger things, and the rest could potentially stay. And I said "good job" (because I believe in encouraging attitude). Because it was a good effort that was put into it. It just needed some (arguable amount) work (but who am I to tell people what they should do? Maybe I have too high expectations? Maybe I would be too harsh to undergrads?). Anyway... the presentation today was ... long (2 h) and "slightly" painful. I felt bad... I had an opportunity to ease it a little, and I didn't (even though, I did suggest a few things that would have helped, if they would have been taken into consideration).
On the other hand, my first presentation in Canada was a disaster. I felt horrible squared. But I learned quite a bit from this one presentation.

So today (Tuesday) was disasterous too... This two hour lab meeting. Plus another meeting, where after half an hour or so the conclusion and to-do list was exactly the same as at the previous meeting (am I crazy to expect progress?). Something has happened to my patience recently. I used to be able to tolerate almost anything. Now I need to remove myself physically from the situation (if I want everyone participating to remain scratchless to say the least).
But the good things were here too:
I located one super difficultly accessable paper. I just need to go and get it. Tomorrow.
I had a nice TA experience (I prepared well! See this comics): everyone seemed to listen and comprehend, no one complained, I had an amazing meal during the TAing, and I was done and done by 9.20. Good!
After I went to the Cafe Nostalgica and had some beer. Add in some dancing and it was an amazing night.
Tomorrow it will be even better!